Okay, where am I now?
Yes, I am doing good. Since the Friday I decided to be motivated and positive, I am. Since the Student Union night I decided to think well about mysel, I am.
I had one test that was yesterday. I like to call it a diva test. I passed. Im proud. I believe that everything is a test, an exam.
Im going to Poland on 21st. Which is like, a week away from now. I have a payday on Friday, so will be able to make some christmas shopping!
I feel happy today.
I woke up and went to uni! I had a Music Industry Environment lecture and seminar, and it was really interesting. I love Russel’s lectures, he is such a great and professional teacher. I hope we will have something with him next year, because next semester is without him I think.
I met with Natalia just in the Student Union, and we had a meal. Then we went shopping and I bought myself eyeshadows palette. Im pretty happy about it, because it’s really beautiful. It means that I have to learn how to use it now.
I changed my Bootea delivery for tomorrow, so it will be here around 12 I think. I’m so excited, just like if they were going to deliver me a package full of puppies! Also oaties, which will help me with breakfast decisions for the next 14 days. I always have problems finding anything to eat in the morning. I should prepare it in the evening before, but sometimes I’m too tired or forget.
FINALLY MADE A DECISION.
I have my bigger goals in mind, but will start focusing on the process more than on the final goal. So I made mini goals for this week only and I will see when will I go from here.
For this week:
1. I want to define who I want to be. How will I look, talk, walk, act etc. I want to see the vision of myself happy, healthy and good looking.
2. I want to watch Dreamgirls and Burlesque, because I need some “diva inspiration” in my life.
3. I want to make the project on pro tools for uni. The deadline is on 18th of December.
4. I want to do some sport activities 3 days a week (could be even a walk, I need to start somewhere anyway) + something to strengthen my arms and chest everyday.
5. I won’t eat any sweets and fast foods.
6. I want to write in my notebook about my feelings and motivate myself everyday, or meditate everyday.
Today I answered loads of questions in my staff handbook for work (im a waitress). I want to stay in this work, so I need to finish it as well. I am trying my best and will stay there! I will make it happen, because I am tired of doing things halfway and give up. I won’t do it anymore.
I’m not sorry.
It is unfortunately too late to join a pole dance society, but there is a 6 weeks pole course at uni gym, so I will join it in January! I am really excited and happy about it.
If someone reads it, please drop me a message!
note to self: if you were able to believe in Santa Claus for 8 years, you can believe in yourself for like 5 seconds ok u got this
Thank u
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